forever

i dont wanna get over this
i just want to go back
i want us to continue
and be like we were
i want the fun
times to go on
the cute times
to continue
i was us to be
as close to
forever as we can

empty

How long will this take
to get over you
to not care
to not look you way
how long will it take
to just be fine
without you
im not goin crazy
i just feel a
piece of me
gone
vanished
and i need somethin
to fill this
area
in my heart
cuz without it
i dont know
what i'll do

wish 2

still down
wishin you were around
to text me
ask me how i
doin
hug me
care for me
kiss me
anything
but its just a wish

no more

no more explaining
the story
to open ears
no more typing the story
on open
boxes
no more rethinking the story
in my hurt heart
no more

im scared that me and you
are
no more
im scared i'll never have fun times
with you
no more
im scared
no more
will i laugh with you
then kiss you
im hurt that
no more
can i stare
in your
eyes
and i really want
this to hurt
no more

forgotten

too scared to mention your name
type it
see your pictures
because with those
my concentration
is broken
trying to forget you

sorry

ok so i messed up
i shouldnt have done it
i feel you pain
cuz my brother
so wise
tell me the truth
how it felt in
ur eyes
to see the girl
you care so much for
behind someother
boys door
do things she shouldnt do
doesnt matter we wont official
the feelings were still there
you still cared
and i couldnt see it
so if you come back
i'll be happy
til the end
but if you dont wanna
thats fine
i'll give in

til then

Heart cries
as im lost to what to do
direction to go
im guessing i should just stop
and breath
inhale and let it go
exhale and cry
inhale and let it go
exhale and cry
i just need to get myself together
but i dont know how
i need to lift my chin up
but im not sure
i gotta be strong
and find my way
if not
i'll just be lost
until im over it

INTRODUCTION to these poems below

All these poems are from 2008-2009. They are all jumbled up with a different boy as the subject. or different meaning or different time in my life. If you think its about you maybe it is. But dont get caught up in wondering. Its just me...my words...my feelings..my dreams.

ughh

racin heart beak
break out into a sweat
everytime you come over
come near. i cant help it

Not like you dont two
because i remember that night
well i should make it plural
those nights
where it all felt right
and i cant forget
those days
too

the small amount of sensitive words
how you feel about me
when they escape that jail of a heart of yours
that you never open....for fear of bein less of a man
i open up and fear you could never be my man

your a player. we all know.
im as innocent as can be
what in the hell do you see in me
the fact i dont love you for your looks
but for whats inside
for how you are
ur personality

What if you play me....
once a player always
you gave me your player card
and i gave it right back
then we went back
to bein friends once more

even when you have a girl
you cant keep your hands off me
do i mind....sometimes...but ur like a magnet to me
everytime
everytime
its all the same
i just dont get it.

im the chloe to your clark kent
and im gettin a lil weary
because i could legally change my name to Lois
and we could get this
but your not ready to settle down
and im more serious than you....so this is
one of those things....
....when you let something go
and it comes back
then it was meant to be
i keep lettin you go....
...home that is....
and you keep comin back
im just waitin for you to return for good.
but im not waitin around my boo's are textin
....your hoes are callin....we'll meet again

untitled

knock knock
i answer
you enter
i sit
you pace around
then stop
thump thump
my heart goes.
i can feel the vibrations in the air as yours
beats faster.

our eyes catch each other
we stare
you glare
i look silently at you
but secretly inside you
tryin to untangle this
knot of frustration anger and pain
your eyes soften on the sides
as if subconsciously you wanted me to help
but the hard exterior
you created wont let you show it

i hurt you once
you hurt me right back
like school kids fightin on the playground
but back and forth
this swing of emotions
swings
happy to sad
sad to happy
then anger
just pure anger

no apologies need to be said
no good would it do
but we both understand this thing
it aint healthy

no words as spoken
as you lift my chin
and kiss me
and give me that look
that would make my heart race
and bring upon the butterflies

you leave out the door
still no goodbye is said
cuz its not needed
no more tears ahead
im cried out
yet i break
but you leave
i turn away
slip the note in your pocket
never to see you again

Alone

After all the
homework and friends
pizza and wine
do i lay down and spend
some me time
lights off
less clothes than before
night time has approached
again to this
chamber
might as well be
solitairey confinement
in this bed
made for one
i would give it all
and then some for two
but its ok
im
" "
im the girl
who everyone thinks
has boo's
boyfriends
flings
but what they really dont kno
is that im
" "
i would give my arm
not to be
" "
to feel that arm around my waist as
i sleep
to wake up beside someone
but
bein " "
means
none of that.
This isnt the cry
of low self esteem
aye
please believe
i just wanna know whats out there for me
why is it
I
who sleeps " "
in this bed wakin up cold
looking at my phone hopin it
will ring
but who;s callin?
i dont think anyone
is interested in me
or my personality
just physically
but thats not just me
but just me i am
cuz in this world
i am
" "
and you believe otherwise
because i have friends galore
there is a place where they cant go
thats why i hate being
" "
but maybe
" " is good.................

i want

i kno its hard to believe
if i say its me and not you
i just dont kno the things i should do
i want love
i want kisses
i want hugs
i want you
but sometimes i dont kno
the lil girl who needed a man
to make her happy
is now the beautiful woman
who has choices
isnt sure.
should she be frivolous
and indulge in the
youth and life of the young
she did so long without
or take the path she so long
looked for.
i feel special around you
but i always feel ashamed
cuz you're givin me 110%
and im givin just what i can
you try hard to accept me
and i accept you too
but your flaws i openly state
while you sit silently
you are everything im
and have looked for
but its just i
who has to get over
my fear
and my attitude
cuz its not fair to waste your time
so i have decided what ima do.
ima stick with this
cuz ive prayed for someone to like me
as much as you do
ima get mad sometime
but its sumthin we'll get thru.
nothin last forever. but
i wanna make us unforgettable
so i hope thats ok
with you.

you kno it

please forgive the ups and down
just that things occur when you not around
i miss you
but you miss me more
i care for you
but you care
for me more than i do
pain me in my heart
you really dont kno
but i cant rush myself
we all kno how the story goes
of the broken hearted girl
tears for this
crying more and more
now im steady. but walkin on my tiptoes
as time goes on
im waitin for you to go
and leave like the rest
you say you wont
but my mind wont rest
with thoughts of you and i
and then nothin
thats how it always ended
you tell me be not afraid
but what can i say
i dont give my 100
cuz 100 created this
sad creature before u and i met
givin 110
gettin 10 back
i feel your difference but i still
have to see for myself
testin you everytime i can
to see how far you would bend for me
how far your patience can ride
i am here.
never failing
always caring
and i promise
that one day
soon
i'll blow your mind
with how much i actually care
<3

He is my <3

My first love
always there when i needed him
help me when i was on the floor cryin
from heartbreak
there makin me look at myself
to tell me that even tho
i look like her....i dont have to follow her path
there stoppin me from scarrin myself up
but left me with the scars as rememberance
the only man to accept me back with open arms
and i feel i had turned my back
but did he shun me
no
he just faded away from my mind.....
let me handle things on my own a lil
the book he wrote me
had'nt opened it since i got to ODU
but yet
he loves me still
and he will forever love me
cuz money is gettin low
people i love are gettin sick
and since death is a natural thing
that i dont wanna experience to ones close to me
but i feel when it do happen
who will i have to turn to
who will make me cheer up
by placin people in my life
(im startin to cry)
to heal the hurt once more.
he wont let me love anyone else
he makes sure of it
until i love myself
which thankfully i do now
and love him
which i do
whenever i get too close to doin sumthin
i shouldn
or start thinkin about doin "things"
he takes them away
of course it hurts
but he knows me
and my heart
and until i find that
one
i wont be doin anythng of that nature
even tho we all have free will
i dont know
but my first love
loves me enough
to lead me to people
to help pull me up
out of depression
anger
stupidity
and replace it
with friendship
love
acceptnace for and by others
and the best of all
joy
and it makes me
ashamed
that i lmost turned my back
but today.
im runnin back
to open arms
to someone who never left
and you kno what....
He still loves me
and thats all i need
cuz stupid boys
have no effect
but He knows
and so do I
.........
there is and will be one
I Love You.....................







GOD!!

Rewind

seems wierd
i cry
i forget
and after a while
here you are
again
walkin'
seems like a stranger
but we both no other wise
cuz that look that gleam in you eyes
tells a different story
one of love , pain
of good times
kissin in the rain
and in instant
ur just a part of the crowd
once more.

old poem

maybe im too young
but i dont wanna wait until im too old
maybe im not pretty enough
maybe im too pretty and make em shy
maybe its the way i act
just cuz i like the music i do
just cuz of the way i act
does that make me incompatible
just cuz you like listenin to rap 24/7
and i like to mix it up
just cuz i do my work
go to school and work
does that make me incompatible
just cuz im waitin
does that make me incompatible
just cuz im not the easiest thing in Gresham
.....
makes me incompatible?
there is someone for everyone
but where is mine.
i mean im not reboundin anymore
from you to him
im not cryin any more
about that one him
im not waitin anymore
for that other "him" to wise up
so whats the deal
havent had a heart to heart in months
havent spoken things i felt
in decades
just alone in my dorm room
do i choseto be alone sometime
yea. to think. to hope. to ponder
and the wish for
im not lookin for a forever
just a here & now
to a
then
im not askinfor much
just tender feelings
a hug
a kiss
a held hand
and yet
that is still askin for the worl

looked

got friends from here to the moon
but still there is some thin missin
sumthing special
a spark
a flicker
a flame
somethin to get my heart racin
something to give me butterflies
cuz i havent felt that in a while
tired of meaningless flings
to get over the hurt
cuz now im over the hurt
and the flings hurt me
tired of everyone else gettin they chance
wastin it
be oblivious
and here i am
wearin my fake smile
sayin its ok.
tired of bein alone
i mean everyone has they flaws
but to someone i wanna be perfect
been single for a while
and im ready to get back in the game
wit a fresh box of tissues
for the hard times
and a camera for the good times
ready to tell the world about
some guy
ready to change my facebook statuses
:) lol
but i guess its time
for me to learn to wait
and let someone find me
may it be love
or like
i just need somethin to keep this flame in this heart of mine
thought i love this one guy
but stuff didnt fall
thought i was in love wit my
bestie
but i wasnt
thought i would find love before college
ha
thought i would find love in college
a ha ha
liked someone didnt like me back
typical
liked someone who liked my friend
typical
looked for love with someone who didnt believe in love
typical
looked for love wit someone close , didnt work
typical

They call me.......

Who am I?
i am the one who sees you for you
and not what the world labels you to be
I am the one who speaks up against the wrongs
when when your name is synonymous with
negativity
I am the one that brings you up
when you are down
shows you the sunlight
when all you can see is the night
I am the one who tells you
the truth when it hurts
but there to make it all better
I am the remnence of perfume
on your clothing from the day before
the scent on the sheets
from the night before
When you lick your lips
i am what you taste
When you speak
my name will forever be
in the air
my presence will flow for your mouth
and your very auora
I am the one who sees thru your front
but doesnt judge
I am the one who will give my all
al
ways
I am the subject of every poem
the other in every slow song
I am the alarm in you day the one who makes it all worth
waking up
I am the shot of energy at 4:45
when its almost time for you to return to me
I am the firm grip around your waist in the late night
the warm breath on your neck
I am the last thing you touch
the first thing you see when you wake
I am the dream you have when im not sleeping by
your side
I am the dream you have in the day
when i am away
I am the adrenaline that make you heart
beat faster like a hummingbird
I am that two second thought
before you begin to focus on your work
I am the big hand in the small hand
I am the gleam in your eye
the softening of your gaze
I make living worth while
I am the one people die for
make movies about
People wait their whole lives
searching for me
some find me
many dont
I am the one who will always be around
the one you tell your children about
I am the one people deny and
people cry over.
I am the only thing worth fighting for
I am the one who can hurt you to the core
and bring you back up
I am the one you will always find your way back to
People use my name in vain
to hide tru motives
I am the undisputed champ of heartbreak
I am desired by all
I am controversial yet simple
I speak all languages
i need no mouth to communicate
I do not discriminate
I am
the apple of your eye
When we're together
its no de javu
its never the same
always sumthin new
I am nameless
but when i am young
some call me
Enpha'taration
when im stupid
they call me
H'aite
but when im mature
i go by
L'uv
Find me.....
im waiting
just look in
the oddest placest

2 to too

Im

TOO

scared to try

TOO

scared that in

TWO

minutes

I Could loose it all

TO

someone else

. SomeOne Better

Prettier

Funner

But I

TOO

can be that way

just give me time.

I dont wanna fall

TOO

quick

for sumone

i have liked

TWO

years

but it seems

TOO

late.

But

Time Will

Tell

If This

TOO

will work

if this

TOO

can even begin

then

a grin

a smile

happiness i will see.

because

it will be

me and him

just us

TWO.

Twice a child once a man

That Boy.

stole my heart

like a lil kid playin keep away

took it.

refusing to give it back

when the game was over .

he kicked it

down the street.

kicked it further. and further

as soon as i could

i knew i would retrieve it

but alas

dammit

another lil boy wanted to play

seemed like fun

like a game

like yarn to a cat.

kicked it further down the street

pass Hurt Blvd

Teary Lane

and the BLVD of broken dreams

everytime i get closer

to gettin that half of my heart back

someone else decides to play the game

"kick DA Heart"

past streets. miles from the start

there goes my heart.

but i no one day

a grown man

not a child

will stray away from childish games

and pick my heart off the ground

blow of the dust

clean it

and not grab tape to fix it

but he will use

the power of true love

a glue that cant be broken

so quickly like tape

to mend this broken heart

until he also becomes a child

hence. one a man twice a child

and my heart is kicked on

forever

until once more

a man

gives me his hand

and leads me

and my heart

on home.

string of Heart calling

you can beat me
you can call me names
you can tell me u never gave a care'
but i know
u did
the memories are wat made me

me today
you can never take my memories
i wear my heart on my sleeve
but its attached wit strong string

Held together with a strong string

a string woven of pain guilt and insecurites

but coated wit the words ,prayers and companionship

of those most dear

broken u ask?

of course , ican reply

mistakes they made

mistakes i made

create the cracks and emphasixe

the lil missing pieces.

A girl's heart is like a ocean

but most guys treat it

like a toilet.

mi corazon

mon coeur

my heart
torn it into pieces
but it always finds a seamster
to fix it together
because inside

hope , belief , pain , and friendship
the love it once had
the hope of love again
the belief that God wont leave her alone
the pain and agony of rejection
and the friendship of wonderful people

hold my few whole pieces

of my heart together
only the strongest can break it
the weak minded have no effect

Braile

Your Mine

My Blind Man

You See Past my Faults

You Make my Insecurites

Fall into a Vast Horizon

of Failed Relationships

Broken Hearts

and Oceans of Tears.

Just Your Hands All over me

Your book of Braile

My Face the Cover

My Body The Story

You Read Tales

of hurt...physical and emotional

but yet Thru it all you see

you see me

for who i am

and you claim me

as yours

loudly and boldly

with no shame in your eyes

or lies on your face

The Ending is of this story is unseen

untouchable

not yet tru

so until i run out of stories to write

im lets u keep readin

til then

prayed to god
wished on a fountain
wished on a many star

for a answer
but again im here alone
so describe myself i use
one word
and one word alone
unloveable

un
love
able

ive searched the skies
the mall
church
and even online

but time after time
im stuck with disapointement
sorrow
tears
and more scars than before

where is my answer
where is my love
where is the one for me

sometimes i think i found it
or i see myself fallin in it
but im eitha alone in my feelins
or its not gonna happen at all.

im unloveable
but so capable
of givin love

how can i show it
if i dont get the chance
how can i love
if no one loves me
the way i want to be loved

ive prayed
ive searched the stars
thrown too many pennies

only to be disappointed
and alone
wit my tears and i

keepin optimistic is hard
but i did it
now i search for the end
when anything has barely began
hope is not my friend
only my frien
d

so many one days
a phrase i use to get thru the day
to the next day
to keep my chin up
my eyes dry
and my head high
but over you
is a state that i cant
seem to make myself become
when that day comes
old happy fun me
i will once more be
until then....
i miss you

bye bye

people walkin around
sayiin this and that
what they think of me
what they think of
what i type
with each click clack
of the keys
who the subject is of my words
when i cant write simple lyrics
i cant express myself
like a caged bird once
more
no longer freed
this once caged free bird
is returnin behind bars
and is closin the beak of her heart
when the door closes behind you

truth

So what is it that you think
tell the truth
do you perceive me
as
crazy
or do you see my actions as
sweet
my girlfriends and i
think that what i do
and did were
cute
but i guess in the mind of males
its nothin but horrid
am i really that bad
do i come off really that
needy
when im not
its just the way i
show
things
but i dont think
you ever understood it
took my word for it
just listened as the words
roamed from one ear to the
other
falling deafly on the ground
beside my feelings
and soft gaze
move
and i turn and walk away

x+1= me

when will i get it
put one
and two together
subtract sum
multiply
and divide
put a lil calculus in it
take sum algebra out
and figure out this out
and solve
for x

Way Out

i always give people a
way out
put a gaurd up
to help me out
let them know its ok
if you
never wanna see me
not come hang
dont call me back
forget to take me home
leave me at the bus stop
at 11 pm alone
i figure
its a small percentage
of those
who really do
truly wanna be with me
ya kno
hang.
unsure
why yes
cuz when i was sure
when i was excited
get all dressed
cleaned the room
at home
did my homework so granma
couldnt say anything
no one ever came
no one ever knocked on the door
i waited by the phone
for a simple call
text
but my phone stayed silent
all those spring and summer nights
so to keep my hopes down
cuz im so use to bein
disappointed
let down
forgotten
by family
and friends too
i prepare for the worst
i dont expect
anyone to call
much less visit
i dont expect
a knock on my door
but when i do
it surprises me everytime
like a old face
from many years ago

so stay unsure
refuse pity visits
pity dates
thats my goal
cuz i can do bad
all by myself
but i could do a little
better
with someone there
cuz everytime the someone closes a door
knocks on a door
my phone rings
i get a lil excited
and i hope its for me
but thats life
disappointing.

mr mr

mr mr
i dont dwell on the past
it just helps me make better decisions
mr mr
i dont dwell on the past
it just helps me be a lil tougher
mr mr
i dont compare you to them
i put you in your own category
mr mr
in the venn diagram of you and them
you all do have some common areas
not many but some
mr mr
i see i get on ur nerves
irk them
"trippen"
"buggin"
mr mr
the past does not
control my future
if you learned the stove is hot
we all know not to touch it again
i just do better the next time
mr mr
you are not grimy like the ones before
cry about them
dont do that
no more
wish they were here
no no
think about the
one in a million
sweet things they did
no no
mr mr
im not one
to keep repeating the past
thats why i took the
less walked path
with us
well you
well there is no us
persay
cuz friends arent really
an us
are they?
mr mr
the past makes me strong
the past keeps me level minded
but the past has nothing
to do
with you
mr mr
i have nothing more to say
on the matter

Hard Work

hard work pt 1

always in my life
i had to work
harder for everything i ever wanted
food
peace
shelter
love
affection
good grades
and thats not gonna stop
i work hard to get what i want
what i need
maybe i work too hard
maybe i try too hard
thus the forever
70 // 30
in my relationships
its just that when someone isnt
doint there part
i take over for them
pick up
what they cant handle
but yet
i always end up doing too much
and when its over
i end up hurting
more than them
Had to work hard
and go to school
to buy myself food
had to move out my own shit
cuz she didnt wanna
had to doe xtra work in school
to make up
and have a better chance in life
so why does workin and
tryin so hard
make everything harder?

9-5

some girls had it all
money
pretty faces
nice hair
swag
style
i had none of that
some girls could get guys
at the clap of a hand
while i had wave my hands
just to be noticed
some girls could
make boys never wanna leave
while i had to constently check
if they still wanted to be with me
cuz
they always wandered
gazed lustfully
at the other girls
previously mentioned
leaving me
sitting alone while
they flirted with another
it seems like i
could never hold the interest
of a guy
always
even though i held interest for them
so to prevent it
i worked harder
and now
i guess
im working too hard
this work isnt ur simple 9 - 5
but
something different
while the other girls
get it all so easy
like a past time job
i work full time
get overtime
and yet on my check
i still get nuthing

Fall

this isnt a cry of low self esteem
like it may seem
but things arent always as they seem
there is no low self esteem
beautiful
i am
but yet
its still so difficult
is it because
im not easy
im a lil slow
ha
im loud
im wierd
well i say im different
i express my self differently
cuz i refuse to play hard to get
because if you want to get
next to me
just let me kno
and i'll tell you if im
feelin the chemistry
or not
cuz im
not the cookie cutter girl
you all expect
is it because im too nice
that i refuse to treat a nigga like shit
play games with they mind
flirt with other to rise jealousy
that
im always available
cuz i wanna spend time with you
well not always
cuz i do hang out with others
i do have friends of my own
but sometime
you cant help
who you wanna be around
at time
but yet
i guess i play the game wrong
play my cards wrongs
trust too quickly
to quick to fall
to quick to believe your different
to quick to hope for somethin different
than before
but thats the risk i take
you only live once
and i dont wanna have any
if only's
in my life
when im old
so i walk blindly into the unknown
waiting to be caught

Hard to Get

Hard to get
what is that
never played it before
never thought i would have to
felt it was childish
why act like i didnt like you
if i did
cuz you would only get confused
like turnin my head to kiss you
then turnin it towards the television
thats not good is it
what is soo good about
this game
if you dont want me enough before it
why should i play it
that game only causes confusion
to the heart
and mind
then i tell yall
what if i play it
and he doesnt come
you all reply then he doesnt like you enough
to come
but he does right now and imnot playing it
or does he really
so i back off
thngs change
he doesnt come
he stops
completley
why
i have no clue
but im not easy
im not really just always available
its just nothin to do sometime
so hard to get
is hard to play
so.....
until im a little better....
i'll stick to my own methods
which have so far
been
unsucesful
but hard to get
its not my cup of tea

If

if only you knew
what goes on inside
if i could figure out
all the things you hide
if only i knew
if this was makin you feel
as bad
as it makes me
inside
if only i could see
into the future
and catch some glimpse
of what could be
if only you knew
what i hoped
for you and me

Lost

I could just flow all day
night
if i needed
but i cant be too much
its the space
he craved
to wonder
(i think)
to see
(i think)
to find another
(i think)
my purpose in life
grief as it may have been
is to not be like
her
you know not her twin
its my grandma i talk about
loveless
stubborn
alone
can only check one for me
pretty soon
check all above
so maybe i try a lil hard
dont give up
like i should
but how can i
when all i think is
what could..........

Girlfriend vs Me

no niggas is worth it
says friends galore
shit girl he actin you you was a whore
how he walked out the door
with your eyes
bloodshot
that aint no real nigga
he cant do you like that
girl you know who you are
how far you can go
the things you can do
girl pleaseeeeee
you'll find a new boo
but in response all i can do
is say no
thats not the road i want to go
if i wanted that
i woulda did that
first
before an us
but i trus-
ted
that things would be different
and they were he's no dog
but something deep within
told him
i was wrong
i wonder why my heart
couldnt tell me first
so i could jump ship
without all the hurt.
they mad cuz i was mopin
and they believe he's just-a
smilin
happy-go lucky
his days high flyin
so if he can
so can i
cuz like they said he's just a guy
but deep
in my heart
it wasnt love
o no
but just somethin
special.
i had hoped for from above.

Grandmother

if i can find one
i can find another
says my grandmother
but the great
gran
says the best things are worth waiting
she talks about tales of love
lost
and found
tales of life
with tears and strife
stories of laughter
before him and thereafter
and says
if you feel this way
then follow.
i question her words
she acts like she aint
heard
and tells me
i know what she said
if i really feel somethin
inside my heart
then dont let it go far
for a womans heart is like
el mar
low tides and high
happy days
then cry
makes you stronger
helps things last longer
cuz no two people
pared as one
are perfect.
now stop cryin hun
<3

Return

Starin at my phone
waitin
hopin
for a text but this space
thing i cant regret
cuz maybe
it just might
bring you back

To be

To be open and real
is what i did
but how far can that get one
when for actions i get shunned
then whats the point of bein
real

Wish

ive wished upon stars
on that one dark road
prayed on my bed
when you lay next to me
hoped in my dreams
when i felt warm thoughts
that you wouldnt go astray
but i guess i just may
have lost this battle

No Clue

wondering what to do
when nothing has been done
wondering which new path to take
as i sit here and contemplate
and wonder
starting aimlessly at the screen
wonderin if those words i heard were true
was real
was likley
and not some cruel joke played to break me
have me surrender give me hope
as i sit and listen to your poem
i just look at you in amazement
wishing things didnt turn for the worst
i cant apologize there's no words needed for that
but i thought i let it go
until the grapevine of mine
grew to my ear
got my heart beatin
pacin
racin
like it did that night i lay across your chest
protecting you from what ever tried to hurt you
and you said you felt like you were in nirvana
a safe haven
area of peace
the thought of you and only you
has me runnin
wonderin
confused
the lil grapevine brought back everything i fought so hard to forget
the tender moments
everything
and all it took was a lil
birdy on a grapevine to return these affections to my heart
when i watch the video
i look at what i miss
no one has ever meade me feel this way
so that i would write poetry like this
but here i am
3 am
i would love to forget you
i would love to be like we were
but im at the fork at the road
and i havent even started this new journey
my goal is to the horizon
to my nirvana
i look back at the footsteps in the soil
and somewhere i there are 2 sets
but then one trails off
and disappears
and its back to just me
but....i cant let you kno
that somehow....i cant let you go

Some kind of way

Really after all that shit
after you called me out
im still feelin such a way
heart beats a lil fast
at the thought of ya name
boy this aint no chris brown
or rihanna
what i feel goes much fartha
than a simple kiss
cuz it was somethin in that kiss
that in the mini
spilt second
this thought runs thru my mind
me layin over you
like a protecta
nothin betta
somethin calm
sweet as necter
better than honey
not better than money
but damn
you make me wanna run
back in time
to that one night
where you and i
were entwined
hand over hand
and simply
we slept.