til then

prayed to god
wished on a fountain
wished on a many star

for a answer
but again im here alone
so describe myself i use
one word
and one word alone
unloveable

un
love
able

ive searched the skies
the mall
church
and even online

but time after time
im stuck with disapointement
sorrow
tears
and more scars than before

where is my answer
where is my love
where is the one for me

sometimes i think i found it
or i see myself fallin in it
but im eitha alone in my feelins
or its not gonna happen at all.

im unloveable
but so capable
of givin love

how can i show it
if i dont get the chance
how can i love
if no one loves me
the way i want to be loved

ive prayed
ive searched the stars
thrown too many pennies

only to be disappointed
and alone
wit my tears and i

keepin optimistic is hard
but i did it
now i search for the end
when anything has barely began
hope is not my friend
only my frien
d

so many one days
a phrase i use to get thru the day
to the next day
to keep my chin up
my eyes dry
and my head high
but over you
is a state that i cant
seem to make myself become
when that day comes
old happy fun me
i will once more be
until then....
i miss you