No Clue

wondering what to do
when nothing has been done
wondering which new path to take
as i sit here and contemplate
and wonder
starting aimlessly at the screen
wonderin if those words i heard were true
was real
was likley
and not some cruel joke played to break me
have me surrender give me hope
as i sit and listen to your poem
i just look at you in amazement
wishing things didnt turn for the worst
i cant apologize there's no words needed for that
but i thought i let it go
until the grapevine of mine
grew to my ear
got my heart beatin
pacin
racin
like it did that night i lay across your chest
protecting you from what ever tried to hurt you
and you said you felt like you were in nirvana
a safe haven
area of peace
the thought of you and only you
has me runnin
wonderin
confused
the lil grapevine brought back everything i fought so hard to forget
the tender moments
everything
and all it took was a lil
birdy on a grapevine to return these affections to my heart
when i watch the video
i look at what i miss
no one has ever meade me feel this way
so that i would write poetry like this
but here i am
3 am
i would love to forget you
i would love to be like we were
but im at the fork at the road
and i havent even started this new journey
my goal is to the horizon
to my nirvana
i look back at the footsteps in the soil
and somewhere i there are 2 sets
but then one trails off
and disappears
and its back to just me
but....i cant let you kno
that somehow....i cant let you go