He is my <3

My first love
always there when i needed him
help me when i was on the floor cryin
from heartbreak
there makin me look at myself
to tell me that even tho
i look like her....i dont have to follow her path
there stoppin me from scarrin myself up
but left me with the scars as rememberance
the only man to accept me back with open arms
and i feel i had turned my back
but did he shun me
no
he just faded away from my mind.....
let me handle things on my own a lil
the book he wrote me
had'nt opened it since i got to ODU
but yet
he loves me still
and he will forever love me
cuz money is gettin low
people i love are gettin sick
and since death is a natural thing
that i dont wanna experience to ones close to me
but i feel when it do happen
who will i have to turn to
who will make me cheer up
by placin people in my life
(im startin to cry)
to heal the hurt once more.
he wont let me love anyone else
he makes sure of it
until i love myself
which thankfully i do now
and love him
which i do
whenever i get too close to doin sumthin
i shouldn
or start thinkin about doin "things"
he takes them away
of course it hurts
but he knows me
and my heart
and until i find that
one
i wont be doin anythng of that nature
even tho we all have free will
i dont know
but my first love
loves me enough
to lead me to people
to help pull me up
out of depression
anger
stupidity
and replace it
with friendship
love
acceptnace for and by others
and the best of all
joy
and it makes me
ashamed
that i lmost turned my back
but today.
im runnin back
to open arms
to someone who never left
and you kno what....
He still loves me
and thats all i need
cuz stupid boys
have no effect
but He knows
and so do I
.........
there is and will be one
I Love You.....................







GOD!!