Way Out

i always give people a
way out
put a gaurd up
to help me out
let them know its ok
if you
never wanna see me
not come hang
dont call me back
forget to take me home
leave me at the bus stop
at 11 pm alone
i figure
its a small percentage
of those
who really do
truly wanna be with me
ya kno
hang.
unsure
why yes
cuz when i was sure
when i was excited
get all dressed
cleaned the room
at home
did my homework so granma
couldnt say anything
no one ever came
no one ever knocked on the door
i waited by the phone
for a simple call
text
but my phone stayed silent
all those spring and summer nights
so to keep my hopes down
cuz im so use to bein
disappointed
let down
forgotten
by family
and friends too
i prepare for the worst
i dont expect
anyone to call
much less visit
i dont expect
a knock on my door
but when i do
it surprises me everytime
like a old face
from many years ago

so stay unsure
refuse pity visits
pity dates
thats my goal
cuz i can do bad
all by myself
but i could do a little
better
with someone there
cuz everytime the someone closes a door
knocks on a door
my phone rings
i get a lil excited
and i hope its for me
but thats life
disappointing.